Archiv des Autors: Aileen

Thinking about changing spaces again

  A clear sign that a building is alive and lived in, I believe, is when the spaces keep changing. All the time the boys were growing up, our flat was always changing to accommodate their needs and ours – … Weiterlesen

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Family Resemblances

From the time he was born, people have always remarked on how much Christopher looks like Peter, and it has always annoyed me. When Christopher was little and I got tired of the same old jokes about the almost comical … Weiterlesen

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Establishing new traditions

When something happens for the third time, does that make it a tradition? I don’t even know now how it happened, but when Peter died two years ago, the house immediately started filling up with people – so many dear … Weiterlesen

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November

Someday, in some distant future, I like to think that a time may come, when November won’t hurt. It seems hard to imagine that now, but it’s what I like to tell myself. Returning to Linz the day before the … Weiterlesen

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September

Five years. Five years ago at the end of August, Peter and I were packing for a weekend at a spa out in the country. We had been there before, and we expected to spend a relaxing few days just … Weiterlesen

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Sisters

There is a word for it. There is actually a “technical” term that I have come across on the various websites about grief and mourning and bereavement that I read. It is a recognized psychological phenomenon, this unexpected and sudden … Weiterlesen

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What is hard about being a widow now

As my sons have heard (probably far too many times by now), among all the many websites I have found that deal with bereavement and grief, one day I found one with a kind of list of many different types … Weiterlesen

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Rearranging my life

Getting through the first year without Peter felt like a goal, something worth working to achieve. By the end of November, though, having reached the end of the first year without Peter, somehow I felt almost cheated that there was … Weiterlesen

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Remembering Peter

As arbitrary and artificial as conventional measures of time are, we have passed through a full cycle now, all four seasons, all the recurrent annual events and anniversaries, all the things that can happen within the space that we count … Weiterlesen

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The Workshop

Peter’s workshop was a familiar, almost magical place, surprisingly cozy in all its chaos. The smell of wood and dust, mountains of wood shavings curling into beautiful, delicate strips, the tiny planes and other mysterious instruments that are the typical … Weiterlesen

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